Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Yesterday was our 15 wedding anniversary. I can not believe that it has been that long. In a lot of ways it just seems like yesterday. I am so thankful for Chase, He is the best thing that ever happened to me. He is a great father and a great husband and I could not ask for anything more. Chase got me earings and a necklace that has nine stones in it representing all of our kids. We went out to dinner for the first time since the baby. We of course took him along. It was a nice evening.
I had a great mothers day. Chase and the kids brought me breakfast in bed. They got me two new vacuums, so I have one for each level and I don't have to haul them up and down the tree stories. A new rug for the dining room, our old one was starting to unravel. Make up and perfume. I went to the whole block of church for the first time since I had the baby. Chase stayed in our ward and helped with the kids. For dinner they made spaghetti and meatballs, and Hannah made me a cake. After dinner we watched old family movies of the kids. It was a great day, everyone made it special.
Time has flown by in some ways and gone so slow in other ways. I can't believe it is already a month since I had him. Sam really is the best baby ever. I always get good babies, but he is the best by far. I think Heavenly Father new if I was going to do it again I needed a lot of help. I have been able to nurse Sam which has been a huge blessing. I have struggled with nursing ever since I had Sol my 4th. I usually have to supplement and pump. I have not had to do either with Sam. He also sleeps from 9 p.m. until 5:30 a.m. During the day he nurses non stop but going through the night is a huge reward. Sam already smiles and looks around. He weighs about 9 and a half pounds and is about 22 inches long. I really struggle after I have a baby. I keep to such a strict feeding schedule and nap routine that I don't have time for anything else. I still have three kids in diapers and three kids that still depend heavily on me taking care of them. It is always really difficult to find the balance between it all. Now with older kids that I have to drive and pick up from everywhere it is a lot harder to have a baby. We decided that Sam was our last. I know that I could not do it again. It is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life! From the outside people think i have a lot of kids, because it is easy for me. It is the complete opposite. I struggle with being pregnant to giving birth to raising and taking care of them. Even though We know that Sam is the last, it still makes me sad. So when I feel like i need to clean the house or go to the store or exercise. I have to remind myself he is only this little for such a short period of time. All of that other stuff can wait. So I seem to find myself most of the time laying on the couch with him snuggled on my chest all day long. Soon I will be out of the infant stage for ever.