Friday, January 15, 2010

Homesick


I am so homesick right now. It is so dark and dreary and wet here. I think by January I am ready for spring.This is as bright as it gets all day.(picture) I have many months before I will see the sun again and I miss the light and warmth. I have been having such a hard time lately. I miss all of my family and friends. I can go days without the phone ringing or talking to anybody. I always had stuff to do in Az. I had so many friends and family members to do stuff with and hang out with. I don't have that here. I am so lonely. I miss running with Kim and Jill. I miss doing crafts with Kim. I miss sitting out in the front yard with Kim watching our kids play. I miss going to the park with the neighborhood and visiting with everyone. I miss working out with Tiff. I miss going out on dates with Chad and Tiffer. I miss my kids friends for them. Especially the older ones. I miss my kids being able to walk across the street to school. I miss all day kindergarten. I miss hanging out with Sarah. I miss Sunday dinners at our families. I miss going to any store and running into people I know. I miss going to HomeGoods with my sister in laws. I miss my kids playing with all of there cousins. I miss people knowing Emma and seeing her grow up. I miss playing ultimate Frisbee with all of our friends. I miss if I needed anything I could call anyone and have them there to help. I miss not being able to go to family events and parties. I miss family members not updating there blogs so I can see what is going on. (Big Hint to everybody) Sorry this is such a downer. I really am okay. I just want to be home so bad right now. It is hard to move somewhere where you don't know people and it is so completely different than where you are from. It is hard to be away from family. I miss everyone!!! In a week and a half we are meeting Chase's family at Disneyland and I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17 comments:

Jenna said...

Sorry Ali. Moving far away has to be really hard. Maybe someone will move into your ward and turn out to be your best friend you've ever had! I'm glad you are going to Disneyland, that will be so fun for you guys! It was hard for me to just move into a different part if Queen creek! You never know what can happen, maybe you'll be back in AZ before you know it! Love ya

Tiffany said...

Ali we miss you to. I know it will get better. Maybe you will be home soon. Hang in there. We love you.

Crazymamaof6 said...

OH Ali! this is so sad. made me cry for you and we never even hung out. but i know how it is feeling like you are missing out on everything and feeling like you don't have the support system that you are used to. and cold and dreary would kill me. i hate overcast days here. gimme the sun and i'm fine. maybe you should start going to the tanning bed for some sun therapy. ;)

Sarah Hawkins said...

Did you know that feline aids is the number one cause of death in cats? Easy Debbie Downer! I have to say that the temperature was so nice today I had to put pants on. I noticed how much you didn't write about me...your fav bff. I totally miss climbing palm trees and poles with you. OK I am done. The only reason I got a hold of this is Sarah left it on in the kitchen. We miss you to. PEACE OUT. B-Death The Magnificent.

Sarah Hawkins said...

Ali that last comment was from Brady, sorry he is a tard, but you know that full well! We miss you too, Bum keeps asking when he can go to Seattle and have a long sleep over with Ben. I have a friend at work that wants to watch my kids, maybe in March we will come up and bring Bum. We are so excited to spend time with you in D-land!

Amy said...

We love and miss you and your cute kids tons Ali. We're hoping to be able to come and visit soon... Love ya.

mommy k said...

i miss you too.

mommy k said...

i am updating my blog...just for you! p.s. my word verification word that i have to type to leave a comment is "butspace". how funny! i am laughing out loud to myself. kevin is looking at my and wondering what is going on.

cherryl said...

and don't you miss me from that one time we hung out at my house a long time ago... ha ha, just kidding. but this post even made me sad.
do your kids still go to bed at 7:00pm? just curious if that is how you make everything look so amazing. i really have days when i think i am going to be more like ali... and keep my house CLEAN and lose weight so i look BEAUTIFUL for my husband and actually put my kids to bed!!! see how i hardly know you, but the little i do know inspires me. :)

Ali said...

Hang in there Ali! I know exactly how you feel - we have moved so much in the last 7 years that I feel like I only have 2 friends that will actually do anything with me! The times that we live in make it even harder to make friends it seems, everyone is too busy. Your kids are awesome and they love you. You've got great friends & family who love you too. Pick up that phone and call someone when you need to hear a voice - no one will complain and anyone would love to hear from you. Oh, and Washington IS really depressing this time of year (just so you don't think there's anything wrong with you for feeling this way - it is totally the weather!). Hang in there sister!

Jillian said...

miss you too, ali. I have yet to be OK running outside by myself since you left.

Tam said...

Rest up cuz we are gonna party next week!!!

Can't wait to see you all.

Disneyland hasn't ever seen what we're about to do to it Ü

Lots of love....and I will update the blog. I've just needed a little motivation lately....I think that was all I needed.

Next week!! Hang in there!

marshall and chelsea said...

We miss you too! And all of your kids! Our family seems so much smaller nowadays! Marshall Jack and I want to come visit sometime this year! Marshall wants to go in October cause ASU will be playing Washington State in football and he wants to go to the game... haha of course. But we love you and miss you and I just updated my blog and will try to be better at it!

Joie said...

You obviously don't know me, but I enjoy reading your blog. Not to mention you give me great decorating ideas!!

I can imagine it is difficult here coming from AZ. I am born and raised here in Washington state (Tacoma) and I even get a little sad when it's so dreary so often. So I bet it is triple hard for someone like you.

My best friend of 16 years (raised here in WA as well) just moved to Missouri with her four children and husband...she is miserable. Everything is different there than it is here and she misses everything so much, especially her friends and family that were always there for her.

I hope that the sun starts at least giving some better appearances for the sake of sanity!!

Have a great time in Disneyland too! I normally go there every year at this time and it's the BEST time to go!!! I am missing out this year, so I am totally jealous!

Ali said...

My sister, Anne Hillstead, told me to take a look at your blog. I've been complaining to her about the dreary Seattle weather, too. It's horrible!! Anyway, we, along with Megan Bean (in your ward & my good friend) should go to lunch or something sometime soon. Food always makes me feel better about this depressing place!

Heath694 said...

I know exactly how you feel, Ali. I miss home and family every single day. I have never had the benefits that you listed because we moved here before I had kids old enough to care. However, I think of how I would love to have their cousins constantly around and my friends too. I would love to hang out with my sisters and parents and Martin's too. It does get easier. It takes time. I'm sorry you're going through this. Call me and we can hang out anytime. I would love it!

Angela said...

Hey Ali! It's Angela. I know we haven't talked in forever, but I just wanted to say Hi! It must be so hard living away from friends and family and especially when the weather is dreary! Glad you had fun at Disneyland. We are going next week with Eric's family, so we only missed you by a couple of weeks! It would be fun to hear from you if you get a chance sometime. My e-mail is aminer1@cox.net. Love ya!